Oh wow it's been a couple days there hasn't it? Well I was out of town hanging out with my brother and our friend. Both of whom I don't see that often. It was basically a weekend of staying up late, playing video games, and listening/attempting to play music. Yes I said attempting. I've been trying to learn an instrument for some years now. Guitar, ukulele, piano etc, etc. Still can't play anything though. I have trouble staying focused on one thing long enough to get the hang of it. But I think if we actually focused on it we'd be pretty decent. I mean we're both pretty damn creative if I may say so myself. But I digress...
I didn't get much writing done. Hanging out with friends isn't the best place to write. Well for me anyways. I have to have it quiet. And preferably alone. I really need to get myself away from ANY possible distraction. If it's there I'm pretty sure I will probably try to use it to delay writing.
Why can't I just write? I think deep down it's the fear of rejection. That someone is going to tell me its horrible. I tell myself that I don't care. That it's what I want to do and what makes me happy. But then why are these thoughts still there? If anyone knows anything that could possibly help me get rid of these fears I would be beyond grateful!
I mean really, I have all the skills (grammar and the like might need some brushing up on. But that's what editing is for!) I have the basic story. The material to get my ideas down. I have everything I need. Why can't I write it then? I think I may have a theory. I think that I'm looking at it in "the big picture". Meaning I focusing on writing a novel. The entire thing. I should focus on smaller section. Make reasonable goals for myself. Space it out and take my time. Not rush it and most likely boggle my story. Now if only I can figure out what is a "reasonable" goal. Any ideas on what would be good?
I just need to get out of this "writing slump" that I've been in for too long. I used to write like crazy when I was younger. Now thinking back to then I really wish I hadn't thrown away all those stories :( I wish I could remember what some of them were about!!
I guess I'm gonna leave it at that for now. Any answers to the questions I posed would be greatly appreciated!